Confessions

   I have had a long absence from blogging.  So, in some ways my original intention of writing as I go has not been particularly successful.  (See initial blog dated April 20^th”Why Write a Blog?”)  The good news, I guess, is that I am not yet a full fledged entrepreneur so there is still time for me to mend my ways. 

   When I started this blog my entrepreneurial dreams had me heading in a completely different direction than I am going today.  But I believe the universe gives us feedback on which of our ideas are the best and that we very rarely end up exactly where we think we are going.  A few months ago I stumbled into selling a couple of things on Ebay. Today I have an actual store front, steady sales and what I hope is a growing business.

   The other item which is significant to point out is that I am currently employed as a waitress.  There are those, no doubt, who would view this as a step backwards from my previous employment in the corporate world but theirs may be the more short sided view.  I would be lying if I said that I made the transition without any adjustments to my ego, but I am learning to be less concerned with the view points of others and more willing to follow my own unconventional path. 

   I have had to let go of the person that I thought I was, steady, dependable, beige.  Life is more of an adventure for me now, full of new avenues to explore. I feel more colorful somehow but also isolated from the rest of the pack.  It’s a paradox I am learning to understand.  I no longer live in the 8 to 5’r den.  I no longer share in the water cooler gossip or feel the frustration of spending most of my waking hours working on someone else’s dream.  I am greedy I suppose but I want to live my own dreams and pursue my own course.

   If unfulfilled dreams are such a source of heart break and disappointment why would anyone logically conclude to hold them at arms length and not give them a try?  Who is happier I wonder the sensible man who will not dream or the foolish one who dares to try?  The answer is clear to me.  I am happier being a fool.